Unfamiliar

In an attempt to clear my head once again,

You manage to invade the privacy of my brainwaves

Your very scent wraps itself around my every thought

Squeezing the life out of anything circulating my cerebral tissue that is not, you

I close my eyes and the vision of you

Makes its way into the darkness of the back of my eyelids

I open my eyes and you are no longer there…in sight

But I can feel your breath on my neck

whispering words that comfort my beating heart and seem to suture my open wounds

making it ok for them to heal now

Your touch caresses my smooth skin ever so gently as if it’s almost not there

But it’s not, there that is

Yet, I can feel your swelling slide in between my thighs

Breaking me out in emotional hives

As if your growth within me allows me to grow too

I never gave you permission to enter into my system

To disseminate through my veins like the very blood that keeps me alive

I never said it was ok for you to be thought about in a daily routine as you have been

Yet here we are. Here you are.

So now I try a little harder to quiet my conscience yet again

But your voice is playing harp strings so quietly in the back of my mind

Soothingly putting me at ease in an uneasy and unfamiliar way

I keep asking myself time and time again what’s the reveal behind your magic trick

And when I look into your “backstage,” no strings, no wires, no trap doors this time

And I find

That now not only am I intrigued by your unexplainable ways, now I’m mesmerized

I want to inhale you in an attempt to keep you on my insides

It’s like an addiction, so then, hit me one more time

Because when I lay it down at night I want to rise with you still on my mind

Getting a little more comfortable with your essence sending chills down my spine

I digress in my attempts to silence the murmurs of your force within me

I surrender to your soothing methods of making me

see me for who I am

And shinning light on the value that was shadowed for longer than I can remember

For consoling my unmet desires and bringing forth my hidden wants

You read my pages like a new found book by a literature professor

And trace my body like a treasure map leading to buried gold and hidden pleasures

X marks the spot, or maybe it’s G that you have stumbled upon to release me

For you have shown me that natural high of knowing a true man without the disguise to hide behind

And with that being said let’s cut to the chase and take this for what it really is

Drop the lyrical lines of sugar coated rhymes and candy flavored adjectives

Words and verbs and sentences that sneak in through your air waves like summer fresh breeze

And let me tell you that I desire your unfamiliarity